Not a good day

I am so upset! After all my delaying and putting off of my appointment with my RE I finally make the appointment. It is suppose to be tomorrow. I was excited and nervous at the same time. anyway...this morning I get a call from the office saying I have a balance that needs to be paid before I can see him. Really bad timing because I do not have it. It is 300.00 and I don't even have remotely close to that right now. So I guess now I have to wait until July. Hopefully I will be able to get caught up and come up with the money by then. It is my fault. I got the bill a long time ago, like last year. I knew I owed it but I was hoping that they would accept partial payment. no such luck. This whole IF thing really sucks!!! It makes me very bitter that I have to fork out all this money and still have nothing to show for it. I have many more thousands of dollars to go and no guarantee that I will EVER have anything to show for it. It SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!!!!

Then remember what I mentioned the other day. Well today they made the announcement to everyone in our company that 4 of our departments are moving down to Florida. they have an office there and it is much cheaper labor so bye bye. It is not my department but they told us that they will be reviewing all the TLs and probably getting rid of 1-3 of them. It does not matter if it is your department that is moving. They will just do some shuffling. I will probably be one of the ones to go since I am pretty sure my boss hates me. I don't know about the other 15 TLs but it is just a feeling I have. My problem is I am not a "yes" person. I tend to question things when they don't make sense or say something when things don't seem right. I do it professionally but apparently I don't think my boss likes it, even though she said that is why she promoted me in the 1st place. We won't mention how good my department is doing now and how smooth everything goes. But I am still trying out the don't worry about it until it happens. A lot can happen between now and December and I really don't know the other TLs business. Maybe I am just making things up in my head because I am a perfectionist and hate one little mistake. i am very hard on myself.

I do have to say the not worrying about it until it happens is kind of a little freeing. I realized that there is really nothing I can do to change what will happen, if it happens. i won't be able to change my boss's opinion because she loves the other 2 TLs under her and nothing I will do will change that. I just need to come in and do my job the best way that I know how and let the chips fall where they may. Will see how I feel as the time gets closer.

So it is only noon and this day has been crap!!! I am now so ready to get back in the fertility race but now I have to wait because of money and lets not talk about what will happen if I lose my job. I am so frustrated!

Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow is game 7 of the Stan.ley Cup finals. Its the last game. Whoever wins tomorrow night will be the champs. I am hoping and praying it is the Re.d W!ngs. I need something to celebrate.

Favorite Things Friday

My favorite thing for this week is...hockey or more specifically Red W1ngs hockey! I absolutely love this time of year! It is playoff time and since the Red W1ngs are always in contention it makes for a great time.

I did not start off liking hockey. As a kid I was more like the boy my dad (I use this term loosely) never had. He had me playing softball at like age 6 and not T-ball no way was a child of his going to play a "wimpy" game like that (his words). I was bowling at age 5. And on the weekends we spent them watching football or more accurately M1ch1gan football because lets face it the L1ons are not something you really want to watch regularly unless you enjoy being ill on a weekly basis. I learned quickly that the best way to get my dads approval was to excel at sports and to show interest in games. He taught me everything about baseball, bowling and football. Watching the games were some of my best times with my dad. Playing them not so much.

So I grew up with a love for the games. I love football. Not so much baseball anymore because I find it very boring. Anyway the one thing my dad did not like was hockey. Which is surprising. Maybe it is because the Red Wings were so bad for so long. Anyway, I find hockey to be one of the most exciting sports there is. But I got my love for hockey from my DH. Lucky for me when we started dating is right when the Red W1ngs started getting good. My husband loves every sport. He can watch anything and everything! He is a little obsessive about it. Seriously he could walk into any one of your houses even if it was the first time he met you and grab the remote and start looking for some game on TV. That part drives me nuts. So because he loved it so much I started watching and he taught me everything about it. Sometime I tease him now because I cam tell him things he doesn't know. I even listen to sport talk radio. In fact I would rather listen to that than to music sometimes...I know weird right?

We even had an awesome day you can read about here in an edition of "look what I did without a kid".

Last year the Red Wings won again so this year we are defending the cup and hoping they do it again. Them winning never gets boring.

So tonight is their night either they go on to the 3rd round of the playoffs or it is over. They are playing Anahe1m and the series is tied 3-3. I think if the Red W1ngs come out and play "their" game then no one can beat them. I know there are many people out there who might have a different opinion but those people would be wrong that is ok because they are my home team and that is how I feel about them. I am excited and nervous at the same time! And that is what makes this time of the year so great. However, if things don't go our way tonight I may be singing a different tune tomorrow. :) I will still LOVE my Red W1ngs but I may just hate this time of the year. LOL

Go w!ngs! Bring home Stan.ley once again!

The last month or so in pictures

So not much going on with me lately. It is finally starting to become nice her in Michigan on a consistent basis so I am liking that. Red W1ngs made it to the second round of the playoffs and I am excited. Work is back to normal and my older dog Katie jo has been doing really good lately and has been very playful. Since not much has been going on I thought I would share some photos from the past month or so. I hope you all have a great weekend!

This is Sammy. When it is nice outside he loves to stay out. When we call him to come in this is what he does...


This is No.ah's at his 2nd b-day...


This is Jo.ey puchig No.ah in the swing...


No.ah playing gu1tar he.ro at my house. Both of them loved it. Jo.ey came in and saw the guitars and said "I want to rock jam." and "Aunt She11 got me guitar lessons". Isn't that cute!


and finally Red W1ngs 1st round playoff game...