Show and Tell

I am posting my show and tell early this week because I am just so excited about it! I received it today and I just could not wait.

Well remember last week on my Favorite things Friday I posted here about Cara and her first annual Walk to Remember! I was so excited about and about all Cara does! Please visit her here and show her love and support.

Well being the Oh so thoughtful person she is, she wanted to make sure to include the online community in her walk that could not be there on that day. She had a contest to give away one of the beautiful memory boxes her husband makes to the person wo could guess how many times she would shed a tear. And guess what? I got it! Right on the nose...4 times! Thanks Cara I knew you would come through for me. Really I never thought I would win because I really don't win things.

Anyway she was quick and today I received my memory box and also a surprise that included the T-shirt she had made up for the walk. When the mailman rang my doorbell my heart skipped a beat. I could not wait to open it. When I opened it I was flooded with emotion and started crying my eyes out. I was just so happy to finally have a place to keep all the cards and things I had to remember my four beautiful angels. They use to be tucked away neatly in a memory trunk that I have filled with everything I have collected through my 35 years of life. But these things deserve a proper place. A place of honor and a place that can be displayed in my home so my angels will never be forgotten. Not that I ever would forget but now all who enter my home will remember too!

Thank you so much Cara you have given me something I will CHERISH forever!!!

So without further adieu I bring you pictures of my new treasure...(please excuse the pictures they were done with a camera phone because my DH who has no tech saviness broke my camera)

The box...



the box with its new contents...



the box in its new place that can be seen when you walk in my door...



the front of the T-shirt. It reads (in case you can't tell):
Share Southern Vermont
Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Loss Support, Inc
First annual Memorial Walk
May 9th, 2009


The back:



I will wear it with pride!

Check out what everyone else is showing at the head of the class at Mel's place.

Favorite Things Friday

My favorite thing for this week is...hockey or more specifically Red W1ngs hockey! I absolutely love this time of year! It is playoff time and since the Red W1ngs are always in contention it makes for a great time.

I did not start off liking hockey. As a kid I was more like the boy my dad (I use this term loosely) never had. He had me playing softball at like age 6 and not T-ball no way was a child of his going to play a "wimpy" game like that (his words). I was bowling at age 5. And on the weekends we spent them watching football or more accurately M1ch1gan football because lets face it the L1ons are not something you really want to watch regularly unless you enjoy being ill on a weekly basis. I learned quickly that the best way to get my dads approval was to excel at sports and to show interest in games. He taught me everything about baseball, bowling and football. Watching the games were some of my best times with my dad. Playing them not so much.

So I grew up with a love for the games. I love football. Not so much baseball anymore because I find it very boring. Anyway the one thing my dad did not like was hockey. Which is surprising. Maybe it is because the Red Wings were so bad for so long. Anyway, I find hockey to be one of the most exciting sports there is. But I got my love for hockey from my DH. Lucky for me when we started dating is right when the Red W1ngs started getting good. My husband loves every sport. He can watch anything and everything! He is a little obsessive about it. Seriously he could walk into any one of your houses even if it was the first time he met you and grab the remote and start looking for some game on TV. That part drives me nuts. So because he loved it so much I started watching and he taught me everything about it. Sometime I tease him now because I cam tell him things he doesn't know. I even listen to sport talk radio. In fact I would rather listen to that than to music sometimes...I know weird right?

We even had an awesome day you can read about here in an edition of "look what I did without a kid".

Last year the Red Wings won again so this year we are defending the cup and hoping they do it again. Them winning never gets boring.

So tonight is their night either they go on to the 3rd round of the playoffs or it is over. They are playing Anahe1m and the series is tied 3-3. I think if the Red W1ngs come out and play "their" game then no one can beat them. I know there are many people out there who might have a different opinion but those people would be wrong that is ok because they are my home team and that is how I feel about them. I am excited and nervous at the same time! And that is what makes this time of the year so great. However, if things don't go our way tonight I may be singing a different tune tomorrow. :) I will still LOVE my Red W1ngs but I may just hate this time of the year. LOL

Go w!ngs! Bring home Stan.ley once again!

Not a bad Mot.hers day

Had a pretty uneventful weekend. Yesterday was ok. We went to my sis's for brunch which was nice. I am liking this brunch thing because then we have time to see both my mom and MIL, not to mention the food is great. we had baked French toast. Have you ever had it? OMG it is AWESOME!!!! Anyway so we went there for a while and then we went to MIL. Surprisingly enough I had a good time at MIL house. The last few time I went over there has been nice. I think it is because it has just been DH and I. His family all together sometimes can be a lot to take.

Anyway we went there and then his step dad took us all out to dinner at this bar they like to go to. They had a nice buffet and it was good!! We stayed and watch the hockey game and the Red Wings won so it was a lot of fun!

MIL is driving down to Ok1ahoma to watch my niece graduate. Apparently she is going to come up here to go to college and live with MIL. I feel so bad for my niece. Her parents are both nuts. She definitely got the short end of the stick. I was sure she was going to be on drugs, pregnant, or run away by the time she was 16. Instead she turned out to be a well adjusted young lady with a good head on her shoulders. I am very proud of her! I can not believe she is graduating. I remember when she was 2. It seems like just yesterday. How fast they grow up. It is a shame that some people just do not appreciate that.

So I just want to send a Congratulations to A! I am very proud of you and I can't wait to spend time with you when you come home.

Favorite things friday

I have been a blogger this week but I really haven't had much to say. Except for what has already been said for how I feel about this week. Today was a bad day at work and I am so glad it is over with and the weekend is here. Now if I can get through the weekend I should be home free...at least til X-mas.

I haven't done favorite things friday in a while but I thought I would bring it back this Friday because I just really need to rave about my favorite thing or shall I say one of my favorite people...Cara over at Building Heavenly Bridges, The Bear and the Comedian , Share Southern Vermont, and last but not least Wall of Angels .I have had the honor of reading her since the beginning and I think of her as a friend even though we haven't met yet (I know we will someday). I want to send her all my love and support because Tomorrow is her Walk to Remember. I am so EXCITED about it! What she has done is just awe inspiring. She amazes me with all the terrific ideas she comes up with and her unending support for all of us. One thing I know for sure is her little girl Emma, though she can not be here on earth with us she is looking down on her mom and is so happy. Emma will never be forgotten! Neither should any of your angels and Cara is making sure they won't. So if you haven't already head on over to one of her many blogs and offer your support, cheer her on as she does us all the time.

Cara, even though I can't be there in person I will be there is spirit. Maybe next year I can come in person. Your thoughtfulness and all you do for the ALI community brings tears to my eyes and warmth in my heart! You go girl! (get some rest tonight)

Everybody have a great weekend!

The week from hell

Welcome to the first week in May or as I like to call it "the week of hell". I am sure most of you know what I am talking about. You know if you are infertile...it leads up to "the day". The day that if you do not have children you do not exist.

Let me preface this post by saying... Mothers are WONDERFUL! They have the hardest job in the world and they deserve a day honoring them. They deserve a day off. I hesitated publishing this post because I don't want to sound like a bitter old angry person. I don't want to sound like "poor me". I try not to live my life like that. I am usually pretty good with other people's kids and baby stuff. I don't want to live hiding out from the world so I try really hard to be ok. After all it's not other people's fault that I lost my babies, that I am not a mother but sometimes it is harder then others and I just wanted to get this out of my head and hopefully feel better.

I love my mother with all my heart and I will spend the day with her but...

This week is harder then others. I really do hate this week because everyone is "what are you doing for moth.ers day? what did you get your mom? Oh and the best one for those who do not know me... what are your kids going to do for you for mo.ms day?"...Well gee I don't know since they couldn't be with me and all cause, you know they aren't actually here...they are just in my heart. Nobody really understands that (unless you have been through it). The only time I feel I do exist is when everyone wants to point out how special it is for the moth.ers. How they deserve the day off. My mom loves to point out that it is mothers day and I should do whatever she wants...which again she is my mother and that is all well and good. She deserves it and I love her but I am just saying that all it does is reinforce the fact that I do not have any children. No one is here to honor me.

All week leading up to "the day" I can't go to a store or turn on the TV without being bombarded by moth.ers day ads and it is tough. I know on a normal day I am bombarded with babies but on moth.ers day I really feel left out of the party and I want so much to be a part of it. I am sick of feeling left out. I want to have a family and know what it feels like to be called mom. I wish I could spend the day with my 4 angels. To me moth.ers day is like another edd that I missed out on. Another day to remember what I lost...another day to hope next year will be different. It is like the week of Christmas where in my head I am saying..."next year I will have a baby by this time or announce a pregnancy as a moth.ers day gift to everyone." Then the next year goes by and it is the same ole song and dance. It really starts to get old.

With Moth.ers day 2009 fast approaching I do want to wish all the moms out there a Happy Mot.hers day (sincerely). I just really hope that for me...next year will be different.

The last month or so in pictures

So not much going on with me lately. It is finally starting to become nice her in Michigan on a consistent basis so I am liking that. Red W1ngs made it to the second round of the playoffs and I am excited. Work is back to normal and my older dog Katie jo has been doing really good lately and has been very playful. Since not much has been going on I thought I would share some photos from the past month or so. I hope you all have a great weekend!

This is Sammy. When it is nice outside he loves to stay out. When we call him to come in this is what he does...


This is No.ah's at his 2nd b-day...


This is Jo.ey puchig No.ah in the swing...


No.ah playing gu1tar he.ro at my house. Both of them loved it. Jo.ey came in and saw the guitars and said "I want to rock jam." and "Aunt She11 got me guitar lessons". Isn't that cute!


and finally Red W1ngs 1st round playoff game...