Letter to the Old and New Year

Dear 2009,

   You suck! Therefore I will no longer be needing your services. As of today you need to pack your things and get out. I thought your cousins 2008, 2007, and 2006 were bad but you found a way to top them when I did not think it was possible. The only good thing I can say about you is that you managed to not let me have any miscarriages this year and for that I thank you. That is all the thanks you will get from me. I do not want to see or here from you after today. Get out and stay out. Thank you!

Sincerely,

To Baby and Beyond

Dear 2010,

   Your new job will be effective tomorrow. I have great expectations for you. And since I have not told the previous years EXACTLY what I expected from then and therefore they ended in nothing but crap, I am going to tell you EXACTLY what is expected.

1. Pregnancy, for me, that will end in a live baby!
2. A new job that I will be happy at and perferably where I can make some good money.
3. My back to get better.
4. My animals to be fine.
5. Last but not least...Much health and happiness for me, my family and my friends including my bloggy friends.

If you can not live up to these expectations...well that is just to bad because you ill have to figure out a way. I am sick of the promises from the previous years not being fullfilled and so therefore there will be severe consequences.

I look forwarded to meeting you tomorrow. Make a plan tonight because starting tomorrow you have a lot of work to do. Thank you!

Sincerely,
 To Baby and Beyond



I hope you all have a very safe and Happy New Year! I will be back to the blogging thing after the new year!

xxoo

Merry Christmas

I haven't been much in a blogging mood lately. I have just been trying to get ready for Christmas and hanging out. We got our first snow over the weekend. Nothing big like on the east coast so I am very happy about that. I am just surprised that it took so long to get snow. Maybe we will get a white Christmas. Anyway, I do not really have a lot to say right now. So I just wanted to send everyone a Very Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays. I hope you have a safe and Happy Holiday. Enjoy the time with your family. Thank you for all your kind words and support this year. I really do not know what I would do with out you!

I will talk to you all after Christmas!

xxoo

A Beautiful Award

The lovely Sunny at Sunny in Seattle has nominated me for the Beautiful Blogger Award.





Thank you Sunny! I truly think you are beautiful too! I am so excited about you twins and I am praying that everything goes well for the rest of your pregnancy! You deserve it!


On to the rules:


It is simple...Post seven things about myself, and pass the award along to seven beautiful bloggers.


Lets see if I can come up with 7 things you might not know about me. If you already know then sorry for the repeat.


1. I am totally addicted to Hidden object and Time Management games. I could play them for hours and hours. They are mindless and VERY addicting!


2. I have never been a cook at all! In fact most of our lives together my husband has done pretty much all the cooking! (Thank you hubby) But now that I have been unemployed I have started cooking. It is not as bad as I thought it was. While I still do not love it,  I am getting much better at it and I think DH likes the break. (although he still does cooking, I am doing more and more).


3. My favorite thing to eat for breakfast is bagels with cheez whiz (healthy I know). My dad used to make these when I was younger and I loved them. I have done it ever since. I have never seen or heard of any one else doing this and usually people give me a weird look but they are oh so yummy!


4. I have never been without a dishwasher in my whole life. Except college but that does not count since we never used dishes there...everything was eaten in pizza boxes or fast food containers. Anyway, my dishwasher broke a couple weeks ago and this whole washing dishes by hand is really getting on my nerves. I hate it! I know I heard a collective gasp go around the world at the inhumanity of it all. Cue the violins now. LOL


5. One of my favorite things about Christmas time is the movies. I absolutely LOVE Christmas movies. I could watch them forever, but only for the month of December. After that I am over it. They are always heartwarming and have a happy ending. So many movies through the year don't so it is a nice change.


6. I hate pretty much every vegetable known to man except green beans, onions, potatoes and green and red peppers. My mom never liked them (except corn) so after my dad moved out it was not something we had very much of growing up. It makes for quite a problem when you are trying to lose weight. I really wish I liked them and I try to force myself but YUCK!!!


7. I have lived in my house for 6 years and still do not have pictures or anything on my living room or bedroom walls. I have not found the exact right thing so they still sit bare. Its sad.


Now on to the other Beautiful Bloggers. Hmmm so many to choose from: All these are not only Beautiful Bloggers but Beautiful women. They all are strong, beautiful people whose words make me laugh, cry and inspire me every day. Thank you ladies I do not know what I would do without you!


1. In Due Time 


 2. Building Heavenly Bridges -  


3. Life, Love & Persuit of our Fairytale


4. An Unwanted Path


5. Stacey's Thoughts On Infertility


6. Life and Love in the Petri Dish


7.  So it Goes




xxoo

Coming Soon

I hope everyone had a great weekend. Mine was pretty good. Went to my sisters house and played cards. I bet you did not know that UNO can become a blood thirsty game. We were pretty viscious during the game but we had fun. Sunday DH and I just laid around and watched movies. It was a good day.

My sister usually gets these picture books made regularly. They are really nice keepsakes because the pictures are embedded into the page and they are made into a book. I really like them. So she got a couple made for the Summer and Halloween. No.ah said he wanted to tell me a story. So he brought me the books. The Halloween one he was very good telling me all about where he was and where all the pictures were taken but then he got to the summer book and he kept pointing out Jo.ey and saying "there is No.ah feeding the giraffe". I would say that is not No.ah that is Jo.ey and then he would look at me and say "then where's me?" while shrugging his shoulders and holding up his hands. It cracked me up. Also you should hear how he says patty cake. It is just the cutest thing in the world!

Now to the Coming Soon part...

Anyway, recently I was contacted by Ashley from CNS stores. They have a lot of online stores. Several of the choices are http://www.petsbycsn.com/, www.allmodern.com, or www.cookware.com.  That is not all. They offer pretty much everything from dining room furniture to to home improvement and everything in between. Well, they contacted me to do a review of something from one of their sites. It took a while since there were so many choices but I chose one and soon I will be posting my honest review of one of their products. So look for it on my blog and thanks Ashley and CNS stores for the opportunity.


Talk to you soon!

Ditto!!!

Almost exactly a year ago I wrote this post. I think this year I can pretty much just say "ditto" and be done with it. Still no baby bump and in fact I have had one of the crappiest years I can remember in a long time.

Christmas time is here again and I do not have any great announcement to make. No relief to be felt that this will be our last childless Christmas. I feel this year I am further away then ever. How can I have gone through this for 9, almost 10 years, and feel further from my goal today then I did last year. It is frustrating to say the least. To watch, what seems like everyone, move on...have their dreams come true...yet here I can sit and read a post from a year ago and still be in the same place or further back. ( I know not everyone. I know there are many of you just like me. I am so sorry for that.)

Maybe I should try reverse psychology on 2010. Maybe I should wish for the worst year ever and then maybe the opposite will happen. At least if I wish for the worst year ever, anything that happens remotely good will be a step up, and I won't be disappointed.


xxoo

The new Fertility test?

Not much going on with me this week. It has been uneventful and overall boring. My big problem this week is I think I have PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) from my cat throwing up on my head. In the morning she likes to drive me crazy. She always comes and stands over my head and meows and meows until I wake up. She basically wants me to get up so she can lay in my spot. Anyway, she has done this for as long as I can remember but now every time I wake up and see her standing at my head I jump. I have nightmares that I hear her doing it again and I startle myself awake. I keep trying to tell myself that we have had her for 8 yrs and she never did it before. That it was a 1 time accident but it has been very traumatizing. Oh well, hopefully I get over it soon. It is not a good way to wake up.

Tomorrow, I am going over to my mother's and we are having our annual slumber party and watching Whi.te Chr.istmas. This is our favorite movie so we do this every year. It should be fun. The bad part comes the next day when I told her I would help her out with a craft show she is doing. I hate doing these things but when she asked me and I felt like I could hardly say no since I am not working. They are the most boring things. It would be different if I had something that I could sell to make money but sadly I don't. I also wish I had money so that I could buy things while I was there but, again, sadly I do not. Hopefully the day will go by fast.

So that is going to be my weekend. Anyway, has anyone seen the new Fir.st Resp.onse test that will tell you if you are able to get pregnant? Has anyone used it? I was curious because now that I am getting, eh hem, older I am worried about my ovarian reserve. Basically the test only tests your FSH level. This will tell you if it is elevated which means you may have a low ovarian reserve. That is the ONLY thing it will tell you. So just because it says everything is ok in that aspect it does not mean that there are not a million other things that could prevent you from getting pregnant. I think that is the problem with this test. If you watch the commercials and you are not educated in the whole infertility business such as we infertiles are, it may give you a false sense that everything is ok when really you should see a specialist.

Anyway, I just wanted to try it because I wanted to see what it said about my FSH levels since I have not been to my RE in forever and it is not looking good for the near future. I am also afraid to use it because I am afraid it will say the levels are elevated and then I will have more crap to worry about. I guess it would be good to know now rather then later but it still makes me nervous. The last time I talked to my RE he said my FSH levels were absolutely fine but now it is 15 mos. later. So has anyone used this? heard about it? I am just curious...

Hope you all have a great weekend!

xxoo