One step forward...10 steps back

I guess I should not have opened my big fat mouth last week and said I was making progress. I jinxed it. Today hubby got paid and we were going to take that money and pay off the rest of the money to the lawyer and I set up an appointment with the lawyer for next week. Things were rolling along. BIG set back today. Hubby went to pick up his check and his wages were garnished. They took HALF of his check!!!!!

Why oh Why? I just needed this one last check and then next week it would have been stopped. Now everything is getting pushed back 2 to 3 weeks and we are going to have to live on pretty much nothing during this time. The MAJOR problem with pushing it back 3 weeks is that there is another place that could garnish his wages at any time now. Plus this month is crazy with birthdays and weddings and all those other extra costs that are not in your regular budget.

My brain is spinning in a million directions. I stared at a budget today for like 6 hours calculating and re- calculating thinking what? I am not sure? Hoping maybe money would just magically appear...no such luck! I just am so frustrated! I want to know everything is going to be ok because right now it just does not feel that way.

Let's not mention that my dog is so so sick. He is throwing up every where!!! He has not been himself for the past few weeks and then today he just started throwing up. I feel so bad for him. I wish he could talk and tell what is going on with him. It makes me sad to see him this way.

So I say all this to say I am sorry if I have been bad lately. I have been reading but not commenting much. Once I get this figured out I will be better I promise! Please send good thoughts and prayers and if anyone knows any  good chants, potion, or dance lol advice to reverse this horrible luck I have had lately I would really appreciate it!

I hope everyone is doing much better then I.


xxooxxoo

Missing Katie Jo

I miss her so much! My house feels empty, which is weird seeing as I have another dog, a cat, and 2 birds to fill it. But it just feels so different without Katie jo. I am having a hard time figuring out how she went from doing so well to so bad within 12 hrs. I was just saying Sunday how she had been doing good. She used to wait at the bottom of our stairs from the laundry room to the kitchen when we would let her in from outside. She would wait  for us to lift her up. She had not been doing that the last few days. She had been running up them like they were no problem. She was playing with Sammy and just seemed really happy. How does she go from that to not being here anymore?

Sammy and Mia seem really sad today. My cat, who really did not get along really well with Katie because Katie did not put up with the cats crap, has been extra needy today. She has not left my side all day. She has to be touching me at all times. Right now Sammy is laying in Katie's favorite spot on our living room floor. This is strange because Sammy does not sleep on the floor. He is always on the couch or the bed. Sammy has never been much of a barker but Katie was. we would laugh when we let her outside because we would say she always had to announce her presence. As soon as she would walk outside she would run to the front gate, bark once, and then run to the back and do her business. Then she would bark at anything that crossed her path. Well today we let Sammy out and he was barking like crazy while he was out there. There was not anything to bark at. I think they miss her too.

I have lost many animals in my life and I had forgotten how much it sucked. I thought it would be easier because she was old and we expected it to happen sometime soon...it's not! My mom is having a hard time because it was the last piece of her friend that we had. Her friend that died last year was really Katie Jo's mom. We took Katie in after she died. We would take Katie to my moms sometimes and my mom was always happy to see her. It was like having a piece of her friend with us. I am happy that my mom got to spend the weekend with her a couple weeks ago when we went camping. It worked out well.

I just keep thinking about the look in her eyes when they were giving her the shot at the vets yesterday. She was angry because it was in her leg that bothers her and she does not want anyone to touch. I just told her that she would feel all better in a minute and then she was gone. So her last few seconds on earth she was mad and I feel bad about that. I hope she knows how much we loved her.

In other news, Sammy has been doing really good since we got the anti inflammatory drugs. Hopefully he continues getting better and better because I definitely can't take losing another of my fur babies. I feel like crap today. I think i am getting sick. I am coughing like crazy and generally just feel really run down. I have been drinking a lot of ai.b0rne. It usually helps if you get it early enough. I have slept a lot today so I am hoping that I will feel better tomorrow.

Sorry for a depressing last couple posts. Hopefully things will start turning around soon.  I hope you are all having a better week then I. Thank you all for your kind words.

Goodbye Katie Jo!

RIP Katie Jo. We loved youso much and are so happy that you came into our lives even if it was for a short period of time. You are with your mommy now and I know you feel better then you have in a long time.






At 3:15 today we put Katie Jo down. The vet said there was nothing that could be done. She just kept having seizure after seizure and you could see that when she was not having one that she was not well. she would try to drink water and fall into the bowl. She would try to walk around and her legs would just give out. The vet said it would not get better and with her age, it was time. My heart is broken and we miss her very much!

If it is not one dog it is the other

I think I am going to have to put Katie Jo to sleep today. We have an appointment with the vet at 2:45. She has had 12 seizures since 2:00 am last night and they seem to get worse every time. I feel so bad for her. When they are over she does not seem to have any recollection of them but she has been getting worse after each one. After the last one she could not even drink water because she would fall over when she tried.

So we called the vet and made an appointment and then all of sudden she seemed fine. It is like she knows. We are going to talk to the vet and see what he says is the best thing to do but I think since she is 15 I think probably the best thing is to let her go. I thought it would not be as hard with her since I know she is old and we have known this was coming but right now it does not seem easy.

We have had her for a little over a year and it feels like we have had her all her life. We love her so much! I just want to do the best thing for her. Ugh! These dogs have not made life easy the last few weeks. If it is not one dog it is the other.

Sammy update

Well, I talked to the vet today but not because he called me. I called him and he 1. said they will not do a payment plan...along with the other 8-10 vets I called today...2. gave us some anti inflammatory drugs for Sammy that worked for him the last time. He is doing really good today which is good news but makes it hard for us to keep him calm. He thinks he can do anything today. I am hoping that tomorrow goes well too because DH works from 8:00 - 5:00 instead of his normal 4:00am - 1:00pm. Which means I will be with him all day and will not have a car...though hubby can be home in minutes I really just need it to be a good day.

I did talk to the Humane Society and they said they would do a payment plan IF we pay 66% up front which is hardly what I would call a payment plan but I guess it is better then nothing. So if Sammy is not well on Thursday when hubby gets paid then we will take him wither there or to our vet.

Please pray or send good thoughts or whatever that he continues to improve from here on...my heart can't take any more. Thank you all for all your kind words...it means the WORLD to me!

Life happening

Whats happening in life today?...Just spending time looking for a job. I went down to the unemployment office today which was surprisingly empty and registered my resume. The employees that work there are very angry and bitter. Why I ask...you are the ones with jobs. Also the state of Michigan is offering 10000.00 over 2 years to go to school and get an education if you are unemployed or making less than 40000.00 a year. So I signed up for the orientation. If they are going to give me money I am all for it! Maybe this job loss thing is a blessing in disguise.

Tomorrow I am going out to my friends house they are having a huge party as a combo celebration for her wedding, their new baby and their mom's 60th. It is suppose to be huge along with an all day celebration capped with camping in there back yard which is several acres, having a bonfire and just enjoying life. I am very much looking forward to it if you can't tell.

My doggie Katie Jo had a really bad seizure tonight. I wasn't sure if she was ever going to come out of it. Once she did though it was like nothing happened. She got up shook her self off and was running around, which she never does, like she was a puppy. It was like she was saying YAY I"M ALIVE>>>YOU DIDN'T GET ME YET. If only us humans could have such a good attitude when bad things happen. So hubby gave her bath since she drooled and went to the bathroom all over herself and we are giving her some extra lovins tonight.

Thank you all for you kind a supportive comments on my last post. I can not tell you how much those lift me up every day. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!

PS B!g Bro.ther 11 started last night and I am in summer time heaven!

The last month or so in pictures

So not much going on with me lately. It is finally starting to become nice her in Michigan on a consistent basis so I am liking that. Red W1ngs made it to the second round of the playoffs and I am excited. Work is back to normal and my older dog Katie jo has been doing really good lately and has been very playful. Since not much has been going on I thought I would share some photos from the past month or so. I hope you all have a great weekend!

This is Sammy. When it is nice outside he loves to stay out. When we call him to come in this is what he does...


This is No.ah's at his 2nd b-day...


This is Jo.ey puchig No.ah in the swing...


No.ah playing gu1tar he.ro at my house. Both of them loved it. Jo.ey came in and saw the guitars and said "I want to rock jam." and "Aunt She11 got me guitar lessons". Isn't that cute!


and finally Red W1ngs 1st round playoff game...

YAY finally SOME (not all) answers

Not much to report. I did go see my doctor today and she gave some answers as to why things are going the way they are. Basically she thinks I have severe sciatica and something else I can not pronounce. she said she is not that concerned about what they found on my ovary but she does not want to rule it out for fear that she may be wrong and therefore that is why I am going to the ob. If the OB gives that everything is going well with my girl parts then FINALLY she is going to send me to a pain specialist. I originally thought I went there in the first place but that was not the case. She said the pain specialist can A. give me a nerve block right in the spot where it hurts (which I have not gotten yet). B. Somehow burn the nerve (little scared as to how you do that). So I have hope that I am going to start feeling better soon! I was starting to think I was crazy. She assured me I was not. She said the reason we have been going through all this other stuff before sending me to a pain specialist was because they wanted to rule out all the bad stuff before making me pain free. She said pain is there to tell you something is wrong and if we numbed that pain and then found out something was seriously wrong then there would be problems. I think that is perfectly logical, however, I just wonder why she did not explain this to me in the first place.

I finally got my short term disability approved and received a check...whew! That takes a load off my mind. In a couple weeks I will have a new baby in the house. Well a baby of the furry variety. My MIL is going down south to see my niece graduate so she is bringing her puppy pomeranian. Oh he is so cute however he is a puppy and therefore very wild! It will be interesting to see how my 2 dogs and cat will react to him when he comes over.

I am so bummed, it has been so nice here the last week or so and now tonight we are suppose to get rain and tomorrow snow! Come on it is spring it is not time for snow anymore. :(

I know you are all getting sick of the back pain woes, so hopefully it will be getting better soon. Then I can start back with the infertile woes. The one good thing about the back pain is it has really had me less focused on my lack of babies and more thankful that I can lay in bed and not worry about taking care of children. However I would much rather it be the other way around.

Well I hope you all have a great weekend!

Here is my Show and Tell for this week...

These are my babies or at least 2 of them.

My dogs. #1 is Sammy He is 6 and a beagle mix with I think a dalmation butI do not know for sure. We rescued him from the Humane Society. When we went to find a dog we went directly to this cage that had this dog cowered in the back. My husband instantly said I want him. The lady at the Humane Society said "you don't want him". (Nice, aren't you suppose to try to help find a home for the dog?). She said "he is very timid. He was abused when they brought him in and he will not be good with kids" . They did not know his name so they named him Wimpy (again great way to try to help the dog). We took him for a walk and just knew he was the dog for us. I said right away he looked like a Sammy and so we took him home that day. We have had him for 4 years and he is a GREAT dog! He is spoiled rotten. When we first got him he was afraid of everything! If kids came arond he would duck under cars or beds. He never begged and he stayed in the corner and shook. Well, we broke him of all those things, including the begging. Now he barks at us if we don't give him some of our food. He is a great dog with kids because he is so mellow. My friends kids come over and take him for a walk and he never takes off he just stays by their side. The only thing is he hates Thunderstorms...in fact he is crying right now and trying to jump in my lap because we had 1 rumble of thunder like 10 minutes ago. He doesn't like fireworks or if we clap our hands, so needless to say he doesn't like it when we are watching sports. He hides in the bedroom. He is so much better now and he definitely gets a lot of love!

#2 is Katie Jo. She is a full bred Schnauzer. She is like 12 or 13. We got her from a friend of our family who just passed away this last March due to lung cancer. She is old but I think bringing to our house has breathed new life into her. She was very depressed when we got her which is understandable she had been in a sad environment for a year and she just lost her mom. But she is happy now! She runs and plays with Sammy and she does not take any crap from anyone. She is definitely our watch dog. If someone comes to our house that she doesn't know she will go after them. Once you get in the house and she sees we are ok with you, then she is ok. She has OCD for sure! When she eats she has to touch her nose to floor several times before eating (kind of like Robert in Everybody loves Raymond). If you interrupt her she has to go through the whole process again. It is pretty funny. 

I love my animals! I don't know what I would do without them. Some how even when I am having a bad day they can bring a smile to my face and they have a calming affect. They love me no matter what and they never have anything mean to say. Just lots of kisses and love. What more could a person want?