Thursday, June 11, 2009

Not a good day

I am so upset! After all my delaying and putting off of my appointment with my RE I finally make the appointment. It is suppose to be tomorrow. I was excited and nervous at the same time. anyway...this morning I get a call from the office saying I have a balance that needs to be paid before I can see him. Really bad timing because I do not have it. It is 300.00 and I don't even have remotely close to that right now. So I guess now I have to wait until July. Hopefully I will be able to get caught up and come up with the money by then. It is my fault. I got the bill a long time ago, like last year. I knew I owed it but I was hoping that they would accept partial payment. no such luck. This whole IF thing really sucks!!! It makes me very bitter that I have to fork out all this money and still have nothing to show for it. I have many more thousands of dollars to go and no guarantee that I will EVER have anything to show for it. It SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!!!!

Then remember what I mentioned the other day. Well today they made the announcement to everyone in our company that 4 of our departments are moving down to Florida. they have an office there and it is much cheaper labor so bye bye. It is not my department but they told us that they will be reviewing all the TLs and probably getting rid of 1-3 of them. It does not matter if it is your department that is moving. They will just do some shuffling. I will probably be one of the ones to go since I am pretty sure my boss hates me. I don't know about the other 15 TLs but it is just a feeling I have. My problem is I am not a "yes" person. I tend to question things when they don't make sense or say something when things don't seem right. I do it professionally but apparently I don't think my boss likes it, even though she said that is why she promoted me in the 1st place. We won't mention how good my department is doing now and how smooth everything goes. But I am still trying out the don't worry about it until it happens. A lot can happen between now and December and I really don't know the other TLs business. Maybe I am just making things up in my head because I am a perfectionist and hate one little mistake. i am very hard on myself.

I do have to say the not worrying about it until it happens is kind of a little freeing. I realized that there is really nothing I can do to change what will happen, if it happens. i won't be able to change my boss's opinion because she loves the other 2 TLs under her and nothing I will do will change that. I just need to come in and do my job the best way that I know how and let the chips fall where they may. Will see how I feel as the time gets closer.

So it is only noon and this day has been crap!!! I am now so ready to get back in the fertility race but now I have to wait because of money and lets not talk about what will happen if I lose my job. I am so frustrated!

Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow is game 7 of the Stan.ley Cup finals. Its the last game. Whoever wins tomorrow night will be the champs. I am hoping and praying it is the Re.d W!ngs. I need something to celebrate.

12 comments:

Another Dreamer said...

UNGH! I'm sorry hun. I hope things get better, rather than worse.

just me, dawn said...

I am so sorry you are having a tough time. Praying things get better for you!

Sunny said...

Oh that really really stinks! Sorry about the RE bill and the job woes. :( Sending you a big virtual hug.

My Dad and brother are going to Game 7 tomorrow night. Wish I had a couple of grand to join them! But even if it's from the comfort of my couch, we'll still be rooting for the Wings. :D

Red said...

I found your blog through Sunny in Seattle and will be following your journey.

Sorry to hear of this set back and best wishes for finding some dosh for next month.

battynurse said...

Sorry about the delay. I hope things get worked out soon.

Dora said...

So sorry. That's a lot at once. Hope things start looking up soon.

Eskimo_Kisses_4_U said...

I'm so sorry you are hitting delays and roadblocks. I'm sending positive thoughts and prayers for good things to come! *Big Hugs*

Good Egg Hunting said...

I am so sorry about your appointment and job stress. Hoping things improve for you very soon!

JamieD said...

I am so sorry! As if money stress wasn't bad enough but now you have job stress added to it.

I hope your supervisor remembers all of the good qualities you have that made her promote you in the first place.

Praying for you . . .

Cara said...

Jeez...that is just crazy! The money thing I mean. I HATE that the world revolves because of it!!!

You are right thought, worrying about something is rather pointless unless you can take action to change the outcome.

chicklet said...

Ugh, I'm late getting to this so it might not matter now, but I'm guessing the game didn't help matters:-(

I hope this week's better, and maybe you got some other something fun to celebrate?

♥Aubrey said...

I just found your blog. I pray you don't get let go...my fingers are double crossed for you. {XX}