I just thought I would share I beautiful poem I read after my first miscarriage. I can't get through it without crying but the thought makes me happy. Hope you like it.
I thought of you, closed my eyes, and prayed to God today I asked, "What makes a mother" and I know I heard him say. "A mother has a baby this we know is true." But God can you be a mother if your baby's not with you?" "Yes you can," he replied with confidence in his voice. "I give many women babies, but when they leave is not their choice. Som I send for a lifetime, and others for a day. Some I send to feel your womb, but there is no need to stay." " I just dont understand God, I want my baby to be here." He took a deep breath, cleared his throat, then I saw the tear. "I wish I could show you what your child is doing today. If you could see your child's smile with all the other children and hear him say..."We go to earth to learn our lessons of love, life, and fear. My mommy loved me oh so much I got to come straight here. I feel so lucky to have a mom wha has so much love for me, I learned my lessons quickly and my mommy set me free. I miss my mommy oh so much, but I visit her everyday. When she goes to sleep her pillow is where I lay. I stroke her hair, kiss her cheek, and whisper in her ear. Mommy don't be sad today I'm your baby and I'm here." So you see my dear sweetones, your children are okay. Your babies are born here in my home and this is where they'll stay. They'll wait for you with me until your lessons through and on the day you come home, they'll be at the gate for you. So now you see what makes a mother, it's the feeling in your heart. It's the love you had so much of right from the very start. Though some on earth may not realize, you are a mother until their time is done, they'll be up here with me one day and know you are the best one!"