I had a very nice weekend. It was my mom and sister's birthday so on Sunday we all got together and celebrated. My mom started a diet and she did not have any cake for her own birthday! I was so impressed. My mother has always been the person who will start something and 1 day later be done with it (short attention span), but this she has been doing for about a month and I am very proud of her. Maybe I got through to her (if I know my mother I am sure it wasn't me), she doesn't take care of herself and she has not been feeling good so I am glad she is doing this. Now I wonder if I could only get her to stop smoking...I guess one thing at a time.
Anyway, on Saturday DH and I babysat for my nephews J (3yrs) and N (18mos). OMG they are the cutest! When we got there L said Good Luck they are horrible today! and basically ran out of the house as if it was on fire. As I stood at the door trying to keep N from crying for mommy I was thinking Im in for a long night. Crying lasted about 2.3 seconds and then everything was fine. It turned out great! I don't know what I was thinking they are always so good for us. N finally said my name and we taught him to say Go Blue (he loves football) and it was the sweetest thing. They just melt my heart! They ate good and went to bed right on time no problems. I often think about what my babies would have been like at that age because they would have been the same exact age as my nephews. Sometimes I wonder about it when I am watching them play. When I watch J with his active wild imagination or N with his tough no fear attitude, I wonder would they have all been close like siblings? I am sure they would have been, I have always been close with my cousins. It would have been nice. I often wonder if by the time I have kids (if I ever succeed) are they going to be all alone. Are they going to have anyone to play with? All my friends will have grown up children, same with L. I know of all the things to worry about right?...but really it just makes me sad.
4 comments:
yay, go mom! i've just started a diet...again...and really have no self dicipline whatsoever. sounds like you had a really great time with your nephews, glad they were good for you! i'm sure that when ya'll do have kids they will be surrounded by lots of love from family and friends of all ages...that's the most important thing.
my bro and i grew up in alaska, 4000 miles away from any family and we're 5 1/2 years apart. it was definitely a struggle at times, but mama made sure to involve us in as many activities with kids our age as possible. we had a very diverse crowd in our lives and i wouldn't change it for the world.
My two sisters in law had babies within a week of each other, and within a month of when my baby, had I not lost it, should have been born. I love my niece and my nephew to bits, but I get what you're saying. It's hard to live them without feeling that twinge...
I so often wonder the same thing..since I have two nieces and two nephews. I really want them to be close and it seems like they will all be grown up before I ever get to have some kiddos. Props for being such a good aunt :D And I was always younger than my cousins and it worked out great...so we have nothing to fear. Thanks for the sweet comments on my maggie. Sending ya HUGS!!
It makes me sad too. I completely get it.
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