Thursday, October 30, 2008

Favorite things Friday

Well, since I am in a funk I am not really "feeling" the favorite things but I am going to post about my absolute most favorite thing in the whole wide world...that is my husband.  I know I have said it before but he is truly a great man! He is the love of my life, my rock of gibralter, my knight on a white horse and whatever other cliche you can think of. He knows how to make me laugh when I feel there is nothing to laugh about. He knows how to talk me down when I have reached the edge and I want to jump (not literally). He spoils me (shhh don't tell him I told you that). As I have stated this week has not been a good week. For some things I can say and others that are not necessarily my story to tell and still others that I have yet to discover in the depths of my sometimes very crazy mind.

When I get like this I can take things, small things, and blow them up until it is the end of life as we know it. I don't know if this is a result of the infertility or other things that have happened in my life but it has become some what of a 'thing' for me. I hate this about me. It is not an enjoyable character trait. It is not something that you hear me go off on my tangents and say there is something I wish I could do, gee she has all together. But some how through all my craziness and my inability to produce 1 live baby in 8 years of trying and 4 pregnancies my DH looks at me like I am his soul mate. I am the one he chooses to be with forever and ever. I am the one he loves more then life itself. Why he does not pack up and run in the other direction is sometime beyond my imagination. Now don't get me wrong I am also the source of much humor and bewilderment for him because he is the most laid back person I know. Things DO NOT stress him out! He alsways sees the "glass half full" and always reassures that things are going to work out just the way they are suppose to and that will be perfect. ..much to my dismay because I want to know how exactly are they going to work. Someone needs to run this by me and make sure it is what I had planned. Make sure it fits in to my version of how my life is suppose to go.

I wish I could be more like him or he more like me sometimes but I know that would never work! That is why were are the perfect balance. We fit "like a glove". If we were both like him nothing would ever get done because we would be sitting around waiting for eveything to happen "the way it is suppose to" and if we were both like me we would sit around planning everything to death and trying to come up with evey contigency plan in case what we planned did not work out and that is just EXHAUSTING! So instead we go perfectly together like chocolate and strawberries (memo to self get these this weeked they will make me feel better mmmm). How we found each other in this great big world is amazing (philosophical enough for you) and I am so THANKFUL every day for him because without him I think I would have been locked up in a looney bin a long time ago. Everyday he chooses to love me for all my faults and quirks. He chooses to stay by my side to make me laugh, cry, sometimes get angry, and feel loved. For that I will never feel lack or stressed or sad. I will just be forever grateful and full for I have found what every person looks for and that is someone to love and someone to love back. That is why he is my ULTIMATE favorite thing!

Sorry if I bored anyone with my sappiness or sadness lately. It will get better soon...hopefully.  :)


Lori said...

Reading this post makes me feel good. What a lovely tribute to a special man.

Shelby said...

This is so great to read. First of all, I love love, as cheesy as that sounds. And I especially love to hear when others have found it and have it as their steady constant, as you have. Like you, my DH is my rock and I read so many similarities in the way I feel about him in your words.

What a wonderful post, one that I hope you'll get a chance to share with your hubby. :) I'm sure it'll make his day!

Monica LeMoine said...

He sounds like a stellar human being. God, I'd be seriously lost without mine.

C said...

What a lovely post. Did your hubby read it? Did he get teary? Sounds like you two are the perfect balance, and future baby will be lucky to join your family.

Okay, I'm going to summon my inner counselor and suggest a theraputic intervention for your funk. It sounds silly, but sometimes we can break a behavior if we exaggerate it. Wake up today and say, "I am going to be in the worst funk EVER." Then purposely try to go overboard with this act -- be in an extra big funk in the shower, drying your hair, eating lunch... It may make you smile and help lift the funk! :)

PS Yes, we are headed back to Southeast Michigan for a visit... we are suburban Detroiters at heart. :)

JamieD said...

This was a wonderful post. It reminds me how lucky I am to have my man and just how much he has gone through, too.

I hope your funk lifts and things become easier and clearer for you!

April said...

this is so nice.... I think that your partner should balance you out. I'm the same way with B. I'm a little high strung, he's very laid back, I talk too much, he's very quiet, etc.

It's great to be on this journey with someone who's so supportive, who can make you feel a little more human during your "crazy" times, and someone who brings our your best.

hopefully you can consume massive amounts of halloween candy and kill the funk with overwhelming amounts of sugar and chocolate!!

Elle said...

Awwwww... so beautiful. I love it when couples appreciate each other. You guys sound like such a great team, and you are going to be awesome parents

flickrlovr said...

I've been having a sort of rough time lately too, so I understand the feeling. I've also been in a major bloggy rut since having surgery last week, so sorry it took me so long to return the comment!

Your hubby sounds like a gem.
Wish I had one like him!

Cara said...

When two people work - everything works. It is so nice to read!

After the marriage conference last weekend, I feel like DH and I have renewed our committments to the "little things". It feels great.

Congrats on such a wonderful marriage.