Monday, December 29, 2008

Vacation ending, New Year coming

My time off is winding down. :( I am so upset. Today is my last day and then tomorrow back to the daily grind. I hate this time of year at work because there is so much to do. I have to do performance reviews and get ready for 1099 season. It sucks. Unfortunately I do not feel as refreshed and ready for it as I thought I would. I enjoyed my vacation. I did not do anything special but I relaxed, I slept in, I spent time with family and friends, I watched movies, I napped and I loved every moment! The thing that really sucks the most is that I do not really have anything to look forward to now and that makes going back to work all that more difficult. Oh well, what can you do?

It is almost the New Year and I am looking forward to that. New Year, New Hope! 2009 has got to be better. Although I do say this every year I am hoping it is true this time. I mean how many years can this crap go on? My luck or whatever has got to turn sometime...I hope. I know I am just setting myself up but I am going to choose to believe that this is my year. This is the time that everything is going to work out. I am not sure how but I will find the money for IVF or better yet I won't even need IVF because my last round of injections are going to work. I am going to figure out how to get a new car. I am going to not owe any taxes. I am going to lose weight. My job will become more secure. My back pain will get better. I will get pregnant and stay pregnant until a live baby is born. I will be like the little engine that could. I think I can...I think I can...I think I can...

11 comments:

'Murgdan' said...

I don't want to go back to work either...and I was just there on Friday. Ugh.

...so ready to start 'fresh' if that's even possible.

April said...

i totally hear you! it just seems like things HAVE to get better, right?

i have not even thought about "resolutions" b/c most of the stuff i am hoping for next year seems to be things that are out of my control. ...even weight. i have been on metformin for weeks, been working out on a regular basis for months, and have GAINED weight. dammit.

i honestly dont care if it means that i can get and stay pregnant and have a real live baby at the end!

it has to be a better year!

cheers.

Dora said...

I think you can, too! :-)

Dora said...

Oh, I hated coming back to work, too. But the boss is out this week, so I'm just clicking through my blogroll.

Echloe said...

I think you will. 2009 is going to be a banner year.

Barb said...

Wow. We have a lot of the same goals!

I completely hear you on the work thing. God I wish I could work part time...

Another Dreamer said...

I hope 2009 is better for all of us. And I hear you on the going back to work thing... I go back on the 1st, and back to college on the 5th. Ungh.

Kischa said...

I love those positive thoughts! Hopefully 2009 will be the year.

mlr said...

Word to that. 2009 HAS to be better!

Sorry about work. I keep feeling like wtf am I going to do if my dd goes to school and I don't have a baby?

come on 2009....

Elle said...

I have many of the same wishes for 2009. All the best to you for New Year's and the coming year! I will be reading and rooting for you.

CJ said...

I hope all those things come true for you. Prayers up for blessings in 2009!