Wow it ICLW already?

ICLW recap:

Me: 35
DH: the most wonderful man I know 42
Married: 8 yrs (together for 15)
Diagnosis: PCOS (it really sucks)
TTC: for almost 9 yrs 4 angels in heaven. 2 early miscarriages and 2 ectopics. 1 ectopic was extremely rare and implanted in my cervix.

If you would like to learn more about me you can read these posts here or here

What is oing on with me:

I can not believe it has been a month already and I am still in the same place I was in last month. Wow that really sucks! I went on Thursday and had a CT scan and got to drink a lovely cocktail of crap just for the occasion. You would think with all the advances today that they could make that contrast stuff taste better. Anyway I should be getting the results sometime next week. So I am still in my cocoon. My DH has been so wonderful taking care of me and doing all the running around. He does it without complaining and anything I ask. I love him so much!

Today is MIL birthday along with my baby nephew No.ah, although I guess I can't call him a baby anymore because he is 2 now. He just still looks so much like a baby and they grow up too fast. Sis is going to have a party for him in April. She is waiting until her knee gets a little better, which I think is a good idea. She has been doing really well since the surgery so that is good news.

I never did go see J new baby yesterday. Which really did not bum me out that much. I feel kind of bad for saying that but my back was hurting really bad after the CT scan and I was just really not in the mood for gushing over babies. Another thing my SIL is having a baby shower on Sunday. Now this is her 2nd child in a few years...Are you suppose to be having a baby shower again for the 2nd one? Now my friend J is having one but it has been 10 yrs since her last child so that is understandable. It has only been a couple for SIL. Anyway, I am not going to that at all. Not my idea of fun. I am sure MIL will be very happy (note sarcasm) about that but I do have back pain and I can't sit for that long. We won't mention I wasn't planning on going even before the back pain started. Again I just do not really feel like gushing over SIL and her 2nd child to a different guy, still unmarried and I believe only 23. The whole thing just makes me want to throw up. With all this baby stuff going on and me being stuck and all I have really been feeling bitter about IF, PCOS, and miscarriages. I am feeling like I don't fit in right now. Anyway I will talk more about that later.

I think spring is on it's way. It is starting to warm up but it is Michigan so you really never know what could happen. We moved the clocks forward last weekend. I love when it stays lighter longer. Anyway, I hope you all have a great weekend! Thank you for all who stop by newbies and regulars. Also thank you so much for leaving a comment...I just love those! Happy ICLW!