Well, it's that time again. Time for my favorite things. This week it perfectly coincides with the beginning of ICLW, which is great since it is one of my favorite things. Since starting my blog in August I have participated twice and have made iron commenter both times. I plan on trying again. I think this is so great that I love that Mel in her infinite wisdom has organized this along with all the other wonderful things she does.
Anyway, it is one of my favorite things because of all the wonderful people I have met. I have said it before but it never hurts to say it again ALL OF YOU ARE TRULY WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL, and INSPIRING people. Also as I am sure you have heard before I have felt so alone for the last 8+ years going through this. While I have had the support (the best way they know how) from family and friends, it is still difficult because they can't truly understand what I am going through, what I feel, how I hurt. They try...but they can't know. You know. You hurt with me, you are frustrated like me, you are angry at IF like me, you laugh with me, you are hopeful with me and I can not tell you how GREAT it feels. I read your stories and I feel all the same for you. I have shed tears for many of you and jumped for joy at your successes because each success you have is a little more hope for me. It is strange that I can feel so much for so many people that I have never met but I truly do!
When I started blogging I had NO idea! I had not had internet in my home for over 5 years so I had not read ANY blogs. I did not know there were all of you out here. I did not realize there was a whole community like you. When I wrote my first entry I was nieve because I thought maybe I would be educating everyone that may come to my blog, that I was somehow the lone person who was ready to share this journey and then I found you and realized there were so many (too many) of us. Too many people who had to be in this journey with me. And in the short time I have been doing this you all have educated me. You are my IF family. I wish you did not have to be here but I am so glad you are because without you I don't think I would have any hope. I was at a point that I did not think it was possible for someone to hurt so much and have their heart broken again and again and again and still go on but I can because you can...because you DO! So many stories of strength through things I would not wish on my worst enemy. Stories of Hope and stories of such love for something that most of do not even have yet.
You all, everyone, make me feel normal (as much as you can with IF), you help me stay sane, you give me HOPE and I THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart.