Saturday, November 22, 2008

Welcome

Welcome all you lovely ICLWers. Let me tell you a little about myself for those of you who do not read my blog regularly (gasp I can't believe EVERYONE does not read this LOL). I got this idea from the wonderful Unfair Struggle I think it is great so I have adopted it.

Name: Michelle
Age: 34
Diagnosis: PCOS
TTC: 8+ years or 100 months to be exact
Married: 8+ years but been together for 15+

I started blogging in August after me 4th lost baby. I have had 2 (1st and 3rd)early miscarriages at around 5-6 weeks. Once I got pregnant on my own but every oter time has been assisted by clomid or injections. This last time was an IUI. I have also had 2 ectopic pregnancies. 1 was a rare ectopic in my cervix. They now consider me a case study and so every time I go to my RE I have 3 or more doctors checking me. It's barrels of laughs. This last one was an ectopic but we caught it very early so luckily I did not lose any tubes or anything.

After the last one I decided to take a "break" to save my sanity and to save some money for IVF. I am not going to start until at least February of next year. I decided to take at least 6 months because if I have one more miscarriage I think I might jump off the nearest bridge (not really). My heart has been broken so many times I have a hard time believing it is possible. So during my break I decided I needed to find people who were like me. I needed people who understood what I felt. People who would not say..."Just relax", "Maybe you should adopt", or "It's your bodies way of getting rid of something that would not have worked anyway". That is when I started blogging and it has made a tremendous difference to me. Just read my previous post about how I feel about all of you.

Every Friday I do Favorite things Friday which have included things like you, my DH, my DVR, and Baileys with caramel. Other things I love are my 2 nephews Jo.ey (3) and No.ah (1). They are my heart. Dolphins, reading, hanging out with friends, Red Wings hockey, U of M football (although they are a sad team to watch this year), CHOCOLATE, and my fur babies dog Sammy, dog Katie Jo, cat Mia.

Thank you for stopping by it is great to have all of this support. Talk to you all soon.

13 comments:

Noemi said...

Thank you for your prayers, and for this post which caught me up.

Andrea said...

Yeah for another U-M fan!! We have to stick together as painful as this year has been! Here's to next year being MUCH better in both fertility and football!

April said...

oh michelle :( you have been through so much. wtf? why does it have to be so hard.

i am convinced that i should write my own case report. that way i can be first author. :)

when you end up coming back to town for you appointment we should meet up :)

Michelle said...

April I would like that.

Shelby said...

Great catch-up. By the way, I still have not tried Baileys with caramel. This is being cemented to my to-do list!

Trish said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your 4 babies.The grief is beyond measure and I can understand your need to wait.

Dear Lord, Please give Michelle peace at time. Cover her in your hedge of protection and give her the love and support of friends .

Fill her with your strength so that she may get through each day, knowing You are there with her every step of the way. I pray for her comfort in knowing You are in control.

I wish you all the best for your upcoming IVF journey.
ICLW
Amen.

nancy said...

Well, hello. Nice to meet you :) Although I'm sure I've been here before.

So you are halfway through your break already. I hope your heart is growing nice and strong!

Kalina said...

Michelle, I love your Favourite Things Friday idea - Baileys with caramel (yummy) - I shall try a drop next Friday :-))
I admire you and how strong you are on your difficult journey. I am a great believer in a positive outcome when keep trying, wishing you all the best for your IVF next year :-)

Cara said...

Michelle - as a constant follower it was still really nice to learn a bit more about you!!!

Mo and Will said...

Michelle,

Here from ICLW. Thanks for the recap - although I wish you hadn't been through so much. Geez.

Thanks too for stopping by my blog. I look forward to following along in your journey.

All the best,

Mo

MrsJoyner said...

Michelle..Thanks for introducing yourself to us...Im here from ICLW and love learning about new people. Your blog is a good read and I will be back frequently.

JamieD said...

It is good to meet you!

Vintage Mommy said...

I know what you mean about needing to find a supportive community. Unfortunately for me I suffered mostly alone and in silence (my daughter is now seven), but I so wish I had known about an online community back in my dark days!

Hope your break is helping you to refresh and gather strength.