2009 has really not been going the way I had planned and I am really trying to not let it get me down. I know we have a lot of time left in the year so I am going to try to keep taking it one step at a time and think positively but if you know me at all this is a very difficult task.
Please keep DH's grandma in your thoughts and prayers. The other day we got a call saying she had fallen. This is not an unusual occurrence. She has Parkinson's and she falls quite a bit. In fact they got her one of those things to where around your neck to push when you've "fallen and can't get up". One problem though...she refuses to push it. She is too embarrassed. It is very frustrating. So anyway she fell and after lying on the floor for 5 hours was able to call someone. My husband rushed over and got her up. Later that night they took her to the hospital. Turns out she had a heart attack. They put a stint in the right side which is 20% blocked but the left side is 100% blocked and they are not sure what they are going to do yet. So for now she is in the hospital so please send good thoughts to DH and his family.
We went to the hospital today to visit and then we went to sis's house to celebrate my b-day. If you are sensing a pattern here, you are correct we pretty much celebrate everything at my sis's house. It is just easier with the kids and all, but come to think of it we did it before she had kids. Anyway, it was nice my nephews as always were cute! Jo.ey called me this morning and sang "happy Birthday" over the phone all by himself. They were very excited about cake and my b-day. I just love them to pieces. My mom really made me mad tonight. She acted like being there was horrible. My Aunt was in town so they came over and I think she said like 5 times "we can't stay" (because they were going home to make chicken). Uh ok I get the point you don't want to be here. Normally it really wouldn't bother me all that much but it was my birthday after all and she knows I have been having a tough time with it. I chose to do something tonight because I did not really want to sit at home and mope about it. I wasn't asking her to stay for 5 hours just about 2-3. Let's visit for a while. Nope she came late and left early. Thanks mom. I did say something about it after the 5th time she said she was leaving, to which she got an attitude about but oh well. I am not going to dwell on it but I just wanted her to know it bothered me. I was nice about it but I am sure in her head I was screaming at her (because that is always how she hears things). It just felt like she could not make time for her daughter. I know not a major thing, Im an adult and I could just be a little sensitive right now but I wanted her to realize how it sounded. Ok...there off my chest now.
So starting tonight as my 35th year on this earth begins lets wipe the slate clean, start anew...great things are coming my way, I just know it...ok I think I know it...it is isn't it? Oh please please let it be so...