Going No Where Fast

I've kind of been in a little funk and feeling frustrated the last few days. I feel stuck. I am not going any where. I feel like I am a hamster, running on one of those wheels, going as fast as I can but getting no where.

I am 35, no job, no kids, no money, and no possibilities of any of those things in the near future. I have sent my resume to what seems like every company in the state of M1ch1gan yet, no responses unless it is for a scam or sales positions. That just really does not seem possible. I mean I suppose I could get a job at some fast food restaraunt but I make more money on unemp1oyment so I won't be doing that.

I am not sure about Sammy. I thought he was doing better and then yesterday he did not seem to good. Thankfully he has not been throwing up or coughing anymore but he just mopes around. He is clearly not himself. I guess the yelping has gotten a little better too. He does it about once or twice a day and it is a little whimper. I feel bad for him and I feel guilty that I have not taken him to the vet because I need to wait until we get paid. I could have taken him on Saturday but I honestly thought he was doing better...so I paid bills. I just REALLY wish he could tell me what is the problem.

Oh, let me tell you what I think is the cutest thing and I think my other dog Katie Jo did the other night. So, the other night, at about 1:00 am Katie wanted to go outside so I let her out. When she came back in she laid down for about a half hour. I was half asleep watching a movie on the couch and I hear he go to the food dish and eat for a minute and then push the bowl around because it was empty. Then she started pacing back and forth between me in the living room and my DH in the bedroom. She does this usually when she wants to go outside or she is trying to tell us something. It is cute but can sometimes get annoying when you can't figure out what she is trying to tell you and every few seconds you her click click click of her nails up and down the hallway.

So I get up and say do you need to go back outside and she just stares at me. I look at the food bowl and see that it is empty and say, "oh are you hungry and want more food?" and she perks up and gets excited. So I have hit the nail on the head. I grab the bowl and fill it with food. She comes over to me and licks my foot and goes to the bedroom for 1 second then comes back to the living room and lays down and goes to sleep. She did not eat any of the food. So I try to get her attention and say come on Katie here is some food. She looks up, uninterested, and then goes back to sleep. I sat down confused and then Sammy comes out and eats some food. Then it hits me...Katie was totally trying to take care of Sammy. She knew she ate the last of the food and wanted to make sure Sammy had some. She got my attention and then went back and let Sammy know he could come eat. At least that is what it seems like to me. Is that not the cutest thing? I think she knows that Sammy is not feeling good. What a good dog!

Well, thats it for me right now. Nothing going on in my life except a bunch of crap. Hopefully Sammy will start feeling better soon...and me too.